I am 37 years old men from gujarat. I did m.pharm and was a lecturer in pharmacy college at Gujarat. When I was talking my lecture on 10/03/2010 suddenly I felt fear n hallucinating condition and I diagnosed at that time with a paranoid schizophrenia n I was on combinations of medicine like antipsychotic n all but after that my doctor has told your disorder has been concerted to bipolar disorder n right now I am on lexpin 25 mg, lithium bicarbonate 450 mg, divalproex sodium 500 mg, nortriptyline 50 mg, trazodone 100 mg, fluoxetine 20 mg, nitrazepam 5 mg, trihexyphenidyl 2 mg on daily basis at night n this all medicines I am taking regularly although I am getting 2 to 3 episodes per year. Right now I had tried brintellix 10 mg for a month but I am getting depressed so I had stopped right now brintellix. Actually I am feeling tired from this condition n getting suicidal thoughts, lack of confidence, worthlessness n getting angry easily n feeling alone. Really I am feeling helplessness. Please can anyone tell me whether my treatment going is on a right way or not. Also I had taken 4.4.2 ect. And right now I am thinking about ultra brief pulse therapy n rtms but getting confused about this because this requires more sessions so financially also it will goes more. But ya if it gives a benefits to my conditions then I am ready to go ahead. I had taken many advice from various doctors in gujarat. Today I approximately passed 10 years with this illness. So please can anyone suggest me a right way. Thanks.