Sir/madam, I started masturbation since around 2000. Initially it was very excessive till lately. I gradually reduced it since last few years. I was mostly single in life. But I had a gf and only then I discovered that my penis dint erect while we came in contact. Also it ejaculated with almost no erection. But almost every odd day, I experience hard penis at bed at late night or early morning. We broke up and initially she mocked at my size. Its 6 to 7 inch when erected but when normal ,it can squeeze to even 2 inch. I went apollo ,madras but as I had no private space, I told a doctor of medicine there just about my penis concern. He dint bother much and upon tests, my thyroid level was about to cross maximum limit of 42 units. Now thyroid is in control but still I have vit d deficiency. I like beef and other non veg. And yes I am attached to porn. I leaves porn for few months but again it comes back. I am 30 aged and after my masters degree, I am struggling for certain higher govt. Jobs. I would love to consult a doctor but for this I can not ask money from parents. So until I can, I need strict advice from an expert on this matter as I get depressed thinking of career along with future married life as am already 30 aged. One more thing, I occasionally see my penis erect even by mild scrubbing in nearby areas or at scrotum but I belief now, if a lover girl present, it will not erect unless I rub and in process it shall ejaculate I fear. Please help sir / madam.