I need psychological help. I don't know whether these are the symptoms of depression or not, but I feel so that I am getting depressed day by day. I feel sad, I always cry. Sometimes I feel like I want to commit something wrong but then I control myself. Yes I am in a relationship and we fight. But then whenever this situation comes where we fight, I get very weak. I cry a lot, can't sleep till 5 am and when I sleep. I sleep too late. Infact I sleep a bit too much. I feel that I am a lonely person, I feel isolated. Whenever I get to smile for a reason, I get scared along with. So that I do not get to cry again at the end of the day. Sometimes I want to cry my heart out, I want to cry out loud, but I can't. Yes I have self harmed many a times. I have even tried a lot to get myself busy into some activities but it won't help. Sometimes I feel like sharing these with someone but then I can't, I can't open up in front of any of my friends, neither my boyfriend as he might misunderstand me, all I do is just cry and cry. I want to add a few things 1. I had a traumatic childhood, I was molested by my teacher many a times when I was in standard 3, 2. When I was in class 9, I was molested by 3 boys, it was almost a physical molestation, not rape. 3. My mom and dad stay separated. When I was a kid, I used to see my mom and dad fought over small issues and he used to hit her. My dad once punished me by making me stand out of the house in the courtyard during night and that too Without clothes, that time I was in class 2. 4. My dad was an alcoholic person and he used to behave very bad with my mom, grandma and grandpa. He used to give many slangs after he came home totally drunk. 5. When I was in class 12, I attempted suicide by drinking toilet cleaner, for which I was admitted in the hospital an kept in ICU for a week. The incidents which happened with me during childhood created a deep impact on me. That time I was too small to understand that, but today when I remember those I cry a lot, feel ashamed, angry, guilty, helpless. Please help me out and let me know whether these are the symptoms of depression or not.