Hi, I'm 17 old. I had a relationship with a guy 9 years older than me. We both were in love and he made me feel so secure and it all seems like he will never leave me. He used to cry every time we had a fight because I Always got angry and and stop talking with me. Then he used to pamper me and he always sort out the fight. Then few months went like this. We both got physical. And I got pregnant. I was scared and I didn't had any idea of what to do. I told him to bring me abortion pills. He said he will bring at any cost from anywhere. I said OK. But days went and he didn't got the pills. Than after that he asked me for DNA test and he said I must have slept with someone because he used protection. I was so hurt. It sounded horrible. I mean I trusted this guy and he think like this without any reason. I cried a lot that day and I told him for break up. He said sorry it was my anger I didn't mean it. I said I'm not going to stay with you anymore. Then he said now see what I will do. He gave a picture of him crying and said this is the last time you are seeing me. Then he went offline. And I waited for him to come online and he didn't came till 2 days. I was worried and I was crying. He left me In a situation where I can't do anything. He didn't gave me pills. So I was scared and I told my mother. She went to gynaecologist and bought me pills. And I was in horrible condition after taking pills. After 2 days this person came online and said I ate sleeping pills because I was not able to tolerate when you said this is the end. He said he is in hospital because he ate 8-9 sleeping pills in anger. I said OK I will never leave you but after knowing that I'm in a serious condition how can you left me in this situation. He said I was hurt and I wouldn't know what to show so In anger I ate the pills. I said OK. I will never leave you. Then after sometime he started blaming me for everything when I got emotional for me. He said you will not use fb insta what's App. You will not go out side for outing and you will not go to hangout with friends if you want me. I was not at all able to tolerate this behavior. Just because I was emotional I accepted all his demands. Then he started torturing me more. One day he checked history In my ph. And he had seen that I used fb and started fighting he said how can you use if said not to. He said he don't like me in social media. And me broke up with me. I was in depression I begged I cried without my fault. I was too emotional for him. After 3 days he forgave me for this. And everyday feels like a torture. He was controlling my emotions. One day on his bday. I saved 8000 rs for us to go for a vacation. He said give me the money I'll book. I gave him the money One day before his B-Day. Next day he said that the money got stolen from my purse and we can't go now and he said sorry. It was his B-Day and I said nothing. Then again he started torturing for small things. And at the end he started blaming me for everything. You did this, you did that I'm very depressed. I don't know how to get out of this. I even begged him for rltn ship he said he do not love me anymore and he has no feelings and if he will come in rltnship he will only come for getting physical. Like this he said. He said he don't feel shit about me. And I'm very upset I don't know how to get out of this everything reminds me of him. I'm too emotional. We were together 1.5 years. I don't know what to do. I think too much and can't able to do anything. What should I do. I feel like suicide :(he said he don't see his future with me now. He will marry some other girl. Once in the starting of the rltn he said he will marry me and will never leave me. He has shown me dreams. I can't forget the memories and I'm mentally disturbed.