I have CA final in Nov 2018 and next GROUP in MAY 19. For three months june to aug leave I took for studying I fell into terrible depression and anxiety that did not let me study. I am also getting extremely affected by any any single negative pressure from relatives or people around about age, marriage, passing fast, constant question about exams to such extent that these thoughts are making me terribly anxious angry all day. I am feeling more sad coz telling educated parents to take me to a counsellor and have anti anxiety pills so that I can at least study are not understood by them and getting response like "be strong" which is making me feel more guilty that I am being weak and cranky. I am not prepared well for Nov exam and that is making me more nervous & afraid with the thought that even if I accept & own up my failure relatives & acquaintances around would mock me & make me feel guilty about my failure which indeed people in India do. I lead good lifestyle with good diet and dance everyday but anxiety fear of everything is gripping me so much that I am sleeping more as even staying awake feels sad and harsh. I want to help myself at any cost and live peacefully.