Hi, Pleease helped me to get prevent from suicidal thoughts and depression. I studied till 12th in Telugu medium school and I couldn't complete b.e then pursued b.sc in correspondence. Totally I have 10 years gap from 12th to degree. My depression starts after 12th. Basically I'm very hesitant and calm. I started hate myself and entire life and the country. I don't know what is real happiness. Always sad, fear and many negative thoughts full of inferiority complex. I learnt SAP and did certification. Got a job and now I'm in Tech Mahindra, Bangalore with 3 years genuine experience with just 4 lpa. When I think and compare with my friends and relatives, I feel very low and insult. Slowly gradually I'm in a good position with full of honest without any fake. I feel work pressure a lot and enjoy working alone but when communicate or in meetings that time I feel anxious and dumb. I got even married this year January month with good girl but not that beautiful or without any dowry or anything. Marriage event were also not that grand compare to my sister and brothers marriages. My sexual life not at all good. My penis not getting tight or strong or very quickly it will go low. I think that is erectile dysfunction. Kindly help me enjoy sexual life and real life if possible.