My wife used to abuse me in a regular basis and even in front of anyone or in public places. It's not like a quiet conversation rather a bit violent that it create scene for others to enjoy our situation. Perhaps it's a love marriage after 4 years of being togetherness, but now it's unbearable for me. During abuse, it's not mandatory that every time I must have done something wrong but rather most of the time I feel not even 1% guilty to accept such offensive languages or loud voice tone. She abuse me for everything for which she is not happy, not necessarily if it's really connect with me some how or not. She abuse me because of my dark skin complexion and ugly looks (Even we have a love marriage), for my low salary (My CTC is 8.05 Lac INR per annum in Kolkata), for my education (I am bachelor engineering graduate from Heritage, Computer science), for my job (I am working in a private well known MNC since last 8 years), for not having a four wheeler car, for not having a private apartment, for not leaving my mom. Etc. Since our marriage I am only thinking about ending my life some how. Even sometimes she force me to end my life so that she can again marry someone rich and handsome. She pray for me so that I can die in an accident, pray for me so that I can lose my job and become a beggar on street, She used to give slang to my mom and my late father. I can't even save thousand rupees from my salary to savings because she wants to have utmost comfort and shopping and enjoyment. I lost my passion towards programming which could be a major impact on my career, painting, photography and even she get angry if I met with my friends. I feel like a unpaid servant and sex slave to my wife. I feel being raped on bed, because I just can't get that sexual emotions on her and even for that also she shouted in a very nasty way at midnight that I am unable to make her satisfied and she will find new partner. We have a kid (one year), and for that I have been tortured every next night to have sex with her and she never care about my health issue or office stress (Not for a single day). And now, In front of my eyes, she used to slap my little one year daughter heavily that I can't bear her loud cry. She even sometimes throw her when my daughter not ready to eat meals. I doubt my daughter might have been killed someday for such inhuman torture. There is not a single person known to me in my family or her family to whom I haven't been abused. There is not a single famous place in Kolkata where I have not been abused. I just can't hold on these situations for long time. My only medicine is one or two pack of cigarettes everyday and Facebook account to forget my real life. But how long? I am also a human, I need to be loved, need to be taken care, need to be focused. I can't continue with these like I am a software engineer and in modern days I have to be technically updated to at least retain my Job in the race of surviving in IT industry. I wonder If she is unhappy when I am having a job what will happen if I lost it. I can't take a single risk to upgrade my career or switching in different organization. I have decided to do suicide but I just wanted to confirm if I can do something to save my life.