Thought no. 1:sab kuch khata ho gaya. Thought no. 2:mere chehre par muskurahat hain jab me 100 saal ka zindagi, 20 saal me jeena chahta hoon. And when I completed any assigned task, then I feel laziness. It's like when a batsman make century in 2006, and after that he is saying, that I would not play further because I made a century 15 years ago and now I will not do any productive things much. Thought no. 3:i enjoy thinking suicidal thoughts because it gives me pleasure. In the sense, I listen and read to suicide news, suicide documentaries, suicide stories, I watch tv shows in which a person is committing suicide and when I watch all these, it makes me very alert and I don't get bored. Suppose, I feel restless thus taking a nap in bed. But when my mind tells me to search for an episode related to suicide, then this brings me out of bed (comfort zone) and I become enthusiastic. Thought no. 4: I used to imagine my pillow to be my girlfriend and I used to talk to it. In my imaginary world, she (imaginary girlfriend - pillow) used to slap me and I caught her while having affair with another guy. This makes me think that in real life, I will get divorce. Plus, minor suicidal thoughts may occur. Thought no. 5: from more than one year, I feel that my colleagues will commit mass suicide during the pandemic. Therefore, not to get the suicidal neck message in my whatsapp group, I left all the whatsapp groups. Thought no. 6: I feel that in future, a virus will come which will affect psychological health thus greater chance/prone to suicide. So, I am feeling anxiety of that. Thought no. 7: I don't pick up the calls because, I feel that if I pick up/accept/answer the call, then the person (incoming call), will hypnotised me (via phone) to make me jump from the balcony. For your kindly information: previously I was diagnosed with: 1) major depressive affective disorder, single episode, unspecified. 2) adjustment disorder with mixed anxiety and depressed mood. 3) anxiety disorder in conditions classified elsewhere. 4) cluster b traits. 5) bipolar I disorder, most recent episode (or current) manic 6) mild trichotillomania. 7) obsessive compulsive disorder. And the symptoms were: 1) feeling low, mood swings, anger issues, aggression, disturbance in sleep, duration: years 2) anxiety, palpitations, poor concentration, duration: 1 month 3) feeling sad, low mood, poor concentration, body pain, palpitations, duration: 7 to 8 months 4) non pervasive low mood, worries about semen and masturbation practice, difficulty in social situation (more with girls), anger outburst towards family member, anhedonia premorbid- rigidity, odd eccentric belief, decreased social interaction 5) compulsive hair plucking - details: grandiose delusions, believes I am incarnation of god. Social anxiety. History of low mood and suicidal thoughts in dec 2020 treatment history: antidepressant: escitalopram 10 mg then 20 mg antipsychotic: olanzapine 2.5 mg then 5 mg duration: 46 days (2 january 2021 - 18 february 2021) note: stopped the treatment by tapering as advised by psychiatrist.