I want to be successful in life but I have not achieved anything so far. I somehow able to complete my graduation. I always wanted to be first and get a good job in life. Because of my fear that I have not done well in studies. It took me five years to complete my graduation. I am a good kid. I don't do drugs and I am not interested in making any girlfriend. My parents always expected me that I will do good in life and take care of them because of this, I feared more and not able to do well in graduation. The main reason for this fear is I used to be a monk and I left my monkhood for my parents because my sister got married early despite of her age. My father got angry and created lot of tensions in our family because of her marriage so I have to leave my monkhood. It took me years to know about people and deal with society. As I was a monk my perspective towards life was different and I am not able to compete with fellow students. I have spent 4 years in monastery and after getting out from there, it was hard for me to do schooling and normal things. But I did my best in schools and not in graduation. Please help me Dr. I have never told this to anyone even my friends, I just want to keep this story to myself. I have gone to lot of depression during my teenage because of my religious values which was not compatible with people. But I remain silent and quiet and moved on. Now, I am in my 20's please help Sir/Madam, I am ready to anything to change my life please help. Now, I am preparing for GRE and trying to do master's in abroad. Please help me, I am really frustrated.