I'm 17. I've been in love with a girl since 2 years now. We have been on and off all this while and it doesn't feel like love, it feels something way more than that. I am very insecure and possessive. She's been promising me to not do stuff I don't like and all. But 1 day after we got apart, she started doing all the worst things she could. She's 1 year younger. I've been getting her dreams and nightmares too. I've been feeling depressed since a really long time and I've felt suicidal quite a lot of times too. I am having issues in my family too. I don't know what to do, I'm just lonely and depressed.