I do not know from where to start. I am a 24 years old male. I am a mechanical engineering graduate of 2016 .While I was taking admission into diploma course in 2009 I had to appear for medical ,there the doctor told me that I have colour blindness so I can not make medical certificate. But on insisting he made my medically fit certificate. I took admission and forgot all these scenes. While taking admission in btech they did not take Colour blindness test so I again get admitted to my graduation. But problem starts in 2nd year. When I researched about colour blindness, I found that there is no place for a person like me in any company There I started taking tension. over thinking and started living alone. I did not tell anyone in family. Due to this I used to spend my all time in mobile .Slowly I got addicted to daily masturbations .from here my mind stopped taking decisions. I used to be very good in aptitude and math. I was a bright student but when I sat for my campus placement I was unable to think on logical questions. I did not got anu placement from college. After graduation I tried to prepare for govt exams for 2-3 months but I was unable to focus and performed badly so I left that. Somehow I got a job in a newspaper printing company .While submitting medical I got my medical made by help of my uncle who is pharmacist. Thus I got job. But here I got more trouble as being a supervisor I need to check colour are properly in newspaper. I found myself unable to see clearly like others. I somehow spent one year in company but with getting more depressed day by day. And in between I said yes to my marriage but after that I am unable to leave job of thinking that I will be jobless in April when my marriage is scheduled .neither I am able to say no to marriage because its too late. I will ruin girl's life by saying no after engagement. I am stuck in this situation .I can not decide what to do now. I want to leave job and get a banking job as I think that will br more suitable to me because my engineering life will be struggle throughout my life. I said everything that was in my mind. Kindly help me plz.