I'm 22 and I have borderline personality disorder. I was on serta and etizolam which made me lose a lot of weight and my anxiety kept increasing. And then I was on quetiapine which made the anger worse. And then on olanzapine which made me gain a lot of weight. Then on venla and risperidone I got a lot of acne. I'm tired of trying out medicines and their side effects. I just want to feel better asap. I have been very depressed lately. I'm a lot more depressed than I am manic. Therapy hasn't helped much so far. I stopped taking the medicines last month because of the side effects. And I have noticed that when I was on venla regularly, day by day I got better and then suddenly manic. After every manic episode I get very depressed. I don't know what to do. Should I try more medicines or should I stop them completely? Does online therapy help?