Sir, I am suffering from tubercular lymphadenitis. I prepare for upsc and other exams, try hard but cannot clear any exam due to fear of exam itself. As exam comes, I am afraid of it and think of giving up and trying next year. Three years passed by. Now there are three incidents I would like to share with you. 1) I had very unusual fear of contracting an std and swelling up my lymph nodes and I always make sure that I do not drink from anyone else's glass or wash hands constantly. In mid feb when I first saw my lymph node swell, I was terrified to death that same day. I thought why I swelled my lymph node which happens in hiv. Before even consulting the doctor, I started over thinking and taking hiv tests and all. The tests were negative. Still I was afraid. I started google searching day and night. One month I wasted in doing all this and then when I visited doctor, he said I need to do FNAC to see if malignancy was present. I started to panic again. My head started paining and I got panicking. I was stressed so much. Then finally after some days with some courage, I did biopsy and was diagnosed with tuberculosis. 2) I was searching for a good lipstick online. I was searching some websites for lipstick on my phone. This colour or that colour, this brand or that brand. It was so obsessed that for 3 months my whole focus was on getting good lipsticks. I felt light headed and lucid dreams about lipsticks and I had overdone it. I got anxiety and some lightheadedness in my head, like floating. Even I could not see clearly. Yesterday I checked and got spectacles but I feel bad in my head even after putting specs. I was so obsessed with lipstick that all I could see were lipsticks and compulsion in buying them. 3) Recently, we shifted to another home. The earlier home, I just loved. It was near to market and was quiet busy place. Everyone there was friendly. Here in manish nagar, everywhere we have open spaces, no people around. All day I stay alone at home. I do not go anywhere. I stay at home all the time. My parents took my vehicle and do not let me go anywhere. I miss the old home to the point that I am so stressed. I gave up on upsc also. Now I am directionless, no job, nothing to do. My parents want me to clear big exams but I feel confused which way. I feel like I am floating directionless, in my head, it feels so bad. Even neck pains and lymph nodes pain. I dunno what but I feel different. I done if it is due to tuberculosis in my brain or lymph nodes that makes my head feel so bad or just stress and anxiety. Head crown feels stiff, neck feels stiff. Doctors say that you take AKT 4 and we will see. Wait for some time. But I feel like going to my old home now. All day I keep planning and roaming here and there thinking thinking thinking.