Hi Dr, after traditional marriage I face many problems even still I face it alot. After marriage I live in threat by in-laws family members. I felt like doing marriage is big crime ,our cast is same but disputes endless .even still every relatives taunt us blame us ,right now I accept every blame every taunt like I done it, Before marriage I am fun loving and very happy family help every one ,but now I live life meaningless ,I wanna alone ,not enjoy social gathering ,ready to end any relationship. After marriage I plan to commit suicide 5 time but not executed because I felt I am not a loser ,even I save one friend who will try to commit suicide. My husband feel I am avoiding him but I love to be alone .but still I am thinking that nobody need me alive ,I m not happy doctor .I can't kill my self because I am not a loser and life is gift of God .I love worship of God and feel that they will be with me in every conditions. I am really alone in crowd.