I am really very depressed I am not able to sleep properly. I aborted my 8 weeks child with my own consent but I feel really very sad. My boyfriend was very good to me after abortion. I met him twice before coming to my hometown. But now his behaviour is completely different. He blames me for this. Today I went with a problem saying him that I am at my lowest point and I feel I am getting depressed day by day. His reply was he is not interested I should go to my friends who care about me. And not him (reason: in march april we had a fight n I had a conversation with my friend he do not like. And wen I got to know about pregnancy he wanted me to wait for 2 days. But I was so tensed and hype that we had an argument in which I said I have many friends to care about me.) For me it was just an argument. He too says very bad rubbish things while arguing. I never do this to him. I am always there for him when ever he needs me. Even at night 2 'o' clock he has a problem I go to him leaving my everything behind. I don't know what to do. Sometimes he is good sometimes he is worst. I cried a lot today saying him that please I do so much for you I am not okay and I need you. I am not going to any of my friends. I also told him that please do not bring these talks in between he replied that this is the time for such things I was waiting for some situation like this when you be in your worst time and I will not be there to care or even see you. Now go to your friends who care about you. I do not know what to do. I am not able to leave him. I am depressed and I get too panic. I do not have any control over me. Please guide me. Please I apologised to him several times. I do everything for him. Cooking for him. I keep him on top. But he only see negatives the arguments we had. The negative I did. He too has done a lot negative with me. What should I do please help me.