Hello Doctor, I am 32 years old widow as I lost my hubby after 4 months of marriage in 2016. I was working with BPO but left after marriage. I moved to my sisters house after I lost my hubby as my in laws did not give my hubby money to me at all. It was an against love marriage and family still not aware of it. I do not have any savings and arguments happen btwn me and my family for me to get married when I do not even like the guy. Sometimes me and my sister also argue for small normal day-to-day things. I found a guy who is a seafarer but he wants me to work so I am doing my further studies. Now my parents do not support me much as my Boy friend belongs to different caste. I always had differences between me n my parents almost since 7 years back. I am very much depressed and feel very lonely and I even get thoughts to kill myself but I divert my mind because I know that only Strong woman can face all these. I still keep crying locking myself in a room and do not let anyone know. I am not able to concentrate on studies, I get distracted and disturbed. I get pressure from family to get married, get pressure from BF to make career and make savings, arguments btwn me n sister. I am fed up with life. Please suggest me what to do as I want to make my career and be independent and bloom in future. I want to show everyone that what I am capable of. I had enough taunts from everyone. I am 32 years old, 153 Inches, 76 Kg. On a medication--using Acenac, ST-cort, Ginkomat and calcirest M. Thank you.