I love some one, and want her physically, she says she is only friend and married, after being forced by me she had done 2 times, 3 years back and now she rejects all the time, m waiting for her badly, and I can not live without her, I want her as a friend and physically too. M in very very intense pain, if I force her I loose a friend and also m not able to control on sexual urge with her. I also tried various spiritual methods to wake up love for me in her, but all failed, I also masturbates while seeing her pic, is there some problem with me?