I was in a relationship for a month, I have been in a relationship before but this one was quite special, the bond, care,etc. I didn't experience this in my any of previous relationship, this was special. Then all of a sudden her parents got marriage proposal for her, they accepted it though she didn't even like him, his dad is a cancer patient so she didn't want to say anything, she said me all of this and said we shd brkup, after that I have been in depression and I get some bad thoughts like to hurt myself, though I didn't do it, i'm feeling weak nowadays, being sad, now my parents got a marriage proposal at first I said no to my mom but my mom is too emotional, so I had to accept it, I don't want to get married, its lik will I be destroying her life with mine, I don't have any feelings for her. at last I get these bad thoughts of hurting myself lik I don't want to live anymore, bt I think about my parents when I feel like doing it bt I don't know how far this is going to work.