Am in relationship with my boss from ten months .in starting I didn't liked him because of his selfish and lying behaviour after some time I was realizing that because of any incidence he is like that .with time we came closure .he was very nice and caring at that time we met regularly but we never had any serious conversation he even told me that he will tell his parents about it soon .i already told mine in the beginning .but after some time because of some incidents I realizing that he came in relationship because he wanted someone to trust for work and because we were of same caste so there will be no problems in marriage .now hewasnt caring at all .we rarely meet and when we do he always on the phone with his clients or just scrolling in internet .even he never takes opinions of mine in personal or professional things .i feel that we are not on same level in professional so he doesn't respect me or give importance to me that much. He keep billing with me like my boss but I never do because I always thinks it's not my thing to keep a record of money in relationships. One day I found he was talking to his female friend who wasn't talking with him like a friend but like a girlfriend we was talking general things but I guess he shouldn't talk to these type of girls so even we had a breakup for 12-15 days .he didn't even talked me about it I solved everything on my own because I have fear of loosing my people. One day I went with my friends at birthday party in late night he hug in wrong way it was live on instagram so my bf also knew about it he was very angry but I told him everything but still now I feel he don't trust me. One day I prank on him and he breakup .after 3 days when I realized he is serious about it I called and solved. So one day I asked for 3 things 1) agreement for professional things .personal and professional things separate no fight will be related to another 2) trust and communication should be here 3) he needs to tell his parents about our relationship after lock down he broke up by saying he can't handle me and he is sick of me. 7 days we weren't talking .every time we broke up I suffered mentally. On 7th day he messaged me randomly and somehow we started talking again. He was talking to some random girl on social media he didn't knew her personally he didn't wanted me to know about it but somehow I knew .he told her he is committed but still he talks to her .i want to know why .can't he talk to me? I even ask him if he is hiding something but he nodded one day he told me he will only be in this relationship if I will support him in professional life otherwise not .i want him to support in my new business too but he will not am not gonna breakup .it hurt me like hell today too. Today am realizing he do not respect love me or don't give respect me that much sometime I feel he try to manipulate me too .i even realize this relationship is a business .if I leave it doesn't affect his business but my presence adds some help to his business .i don't know if he will trust me. Or openly talk to me ever .or will we ever be like normal couple who are madly in love each other .one of our mutual friend says he will do after marriage can I trust that he will change after marriage. I thought should I make more efforts for this relationship or what should I do I was a happy person but now because of these thoughts am suffering from mental breakdown I can't even talk to anyone .because I don't have anyone to talk about .me and boyfriend can do a lot together but may be because of his ego he want to be superior always. What should I do? I don't wanna breakup because I guess there will be any solution?