I think I have another person in me I only know that she fears darkness & sound and when she awakes I don't know what all she says or does I just hurt myself to sedate her. She's rude, mean, aggressive, bad, harsh etc etc. She's normally silent only talks to me and hurts me but if someone comes in between then i'm sorry but I try to make sure that no one comes in between like I push them away she's powerful than me when she becomes active so I make sure that she's always asleep but there's something that triggers her that even I don't know. Once I become normal like come under control I hear people around me saying something wrong about me but I don't remember doing or saying anything like that and I completely have no control on her.