I was diagnosed with ocd, I was judging feelings emotions whether it comes or not or whether I am feeling emotions or not like anger, sadness, happiness, excitement and kisses and after that I was diagnosed with body dysmorphic disorder and suffering from 1 yr+ but. I was so negative that I was suffering from dry eyes and conjunctivitis and have a feeling that I will lost my eyes and optic nerve will get damaged and my hand was injured but when I was in pain I felt like doctor will not be able to cure it they will cut it to save my life but in 20 dec 2020 I got an article about post finasteride syndrome, here my night mare starts I am a prone masturbation I masturbate each day 3 times minimum with no pleasure but unable to stop it even during my depression period, I was worried about my orthodox type masturbation, but here doctor you also need to know about my finasteride journey 2 years ago I took finasteride but I wasn't aware of the side effects but somehow came to know about erectile dysfunction and after that I was aware that when my erection will happen after 4 days I stopped it and after few days I started from 0.5 mg but again side effects occurred stopped it immediately and that erection again become normal, this all happened in march 2019 and I remembered I was fascinated about sex and was fascinated about some girls for sex of my area but after that in starting of june ,i kissed my girlfriend and felt the kiss again I masturbated at home thinking about the kiss and a thought came I will never enjoy the kiss I became worried about her but after two days I again romanced her and felt every bit of it but after coming home again, and because of my love life my study was affected a lot I had two options that whether I have to study or love my gf all the time that day an illogical thought came to my mind that if I will study I will lose the feeling for my gf and that happened and I lost the excitement for her and became anxious about that and searched on internet that how to bring back the excitement or feeling for girlfriend again, I stopped going to college, I thought kissing her will do the job I kissed her but there was no feeling at all I tried so hard to feel the kiss but that feeling wasn't coming so from that I went to a psychiatrist and he diagnosed me with ocd and after 3 months my gf breakup with me ,i thought she might have left me due to my poor ugly face, I again diagnosed with body dysmorphic and suffered from sep 2019 to 2020 I made 1000 of videos of my face in phone and thought that my face bony structure is changed significantly and it is irreversible, I was still depressed and masturbating everyday fantasizing my gf with no pleasure but the real night mare starts when I got to know about post finasteride syndrome and have a strong feelings that my sexual libido is decreased by finasteride and it's irreversible but I remember that 2 years before when I took finasteride, the side effects happened and disappeared after stopping and after side effects gone I used to fantasize a lot about sex had that increased libido and there are 2-4 girls I was fascinated about sex about them but that memories now seem fake to me I know I was fascinated about sex about the girls even after side effects disappeared but still I am worried by just saying to myself that memories are fake that is my self made memory my doctor prescribed me d veniz and oxcarb 150 and 300 after listening this, but I know I am not a patient of post finasteride syndrome bcoz side effects did disappeared after stopping the medicines but still unable to cope with it, now I am searching for proofs that my sexual libido was high after side effects disappeared by searching my browsing history because my ocd started june 2019 and I took finasteride in march 5 2019 for 5 days till 10 march 2019 and due to side effects I stopped because I used to watch porn in mobile and my side effects disappeared there will be no day that I never watched porn and was enjoying that, bcoz I am a bit worried person in all aspects, so if in 2019 march during finasteride side effects if it really lingered then why I didn't complain about this to the psychiatrist in 2019, I know this is a self made problem and also know finasteride is quite safe only 2 percent of people face side effects and side effects also disappears after stopping it so I know the facts but still confused about past memories that are the proofs that my libido didn't affected by the side effects ,bcoz I was enjoying porn that time, please help any psychiatrist should I take d veniz or not bcoz today I masturbated twice in 1 hour but I got erection but masturbated by laying on floor I am afraid that the medicine will affect my erection and I have to wait for erection and take after that.