i am dealing with mental illness from last 8 years and tried treatments from all top notch psychiatrist's of the city .ate kilo's of medicines which are some serious, snri's, tricyclic ,tetracyclines, maoi's, clonazepam, alprazolam, etizolam,lamotrigine, sodium valproate, lithium, quetiapine, aripiprazole, olanzapine etc. But these all medicines and psychiatrist's failed to bring my mental well being back. I am dealing with anhedonia, apathy ,disordered thinking, inability to do goal directed activities ,bed ridden ,i don't brush my teeth, I don't bath ,i am doing nothing in my life ,i have no career and super hopeless about my future ,dull facial expression, highly demotivated, suicidal (i have attempted twice ,one with carbon monoxide poisoning and second with 50 mg clonazepam+200 mg zolpidem+750 ml alcohol bottle+20 cigarettes, my purpose was to die from respiratory depression, but I failed ).now to whichever doctor I will go ,i will ask him will you give me ect ,ketamine therapy ,rtms or not.