I am very much depressed all the time when I eat that time also I am depressed my brain is not working I think. More and and my papers are also not good I have low blood count and I sometimes wants to suicide, sometimes I do not want to eat I sometimes want only to sleep. This is happening with me since 1 month I always thinks and do not do anything my appetite is totally lost. I have no feelings but only fear of my marks, impression on teachers because I have not good heath due to low rbc and my mind is not working and having bad impression on teachers since many days. I have fear of going school that's why sometimes I want to suicide. When to write my hand shrinks and at night I become restless and sometimes I do not sleep. My parents always told me do not worry and be happy but my mind has totally lost. Only I can hear, listen,see but no activity I do only I think. I have drank bad water so that I got typhphoid and I will die but my life seems a load my mind is not working cause I have less rbc and when I do not want to eat something due to fear. My neighbourhood is also very bad. My mom dad dosent talk to anyone here and they also are not mixed up with each other because my health is not good. What should I do I want to suicide please tell me. I do not have a mood always to listen music, tv. And do not have any mood to go other because of neighbours and my mind is totally destroyed by watching these all things. Before I eat tasty things but now I do not want to eat tasty things. Do not have a reason to smile.