My name prasad I studying Chartered accounts course, recently my girl friend avoided me, she can't talk to me, but still can't get over it, day by day I'm going into depression. I think too much her, I don't sleep good ,I think too much and it just keep getting worse and worse. I couldn't even leave my room because I'm tried of crying. Number of times number of days I sit alone in complete darkness, just cry and then walk out like nothing even happened. Locked with in the walls of my own mind unable to escape reaching out for help that is not there my demons are inside no one can save me from myself. I have some times how hard I try to not cry but tears drop still fall. I have seen a world that's hard I'll have compassion in my heart, for I have known some pain. Nobody knows the thoughts that go through my head. When I am sad. I live in horrible world. I should be sleeping but my thoughts are wide awake. I always thought s of suicide because I fell alone in world because I depended too much her. I think a lot all the times actually in the middle of night. There was ON DOUBT in my mind a done deal because I needed to end my shitty life. I think suicide is a permanent solution to my temporary problem because I can't handle my future. I can't live without her. She is nice girl and intelligent.