Hi, I do not know what's wrong with me, I want to go out but I don't like going out of house. When I hangout with ppl I feel like shit and alone. Even to go out for a walk I have force myself to go out. It feels like prison at home sometimes but I still stay at home willingly. Sometimes I hate myself for being like this. Whenever I try to chang myself I am unable to do so. Whoever tries to come close to me emotionally I create circumstances that person runs away. I like being alone and sad but it kills me from inside. I feel like total failure and looser. Sometimes I feel like it would be good if I met with an accident or something like dt but later it feels its bullshit. I do not know whether I need help or not. But it seems things are not on the right track. I am introvert and does not feel much comfortable sharing my thoughts with anyone in my family or friends.

Dr. Saul PereiraPsychologist46yrs exp

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You are just 25 and life has only begun and you already want to end it! You sound more and more like someone with a serious rejection issue. You try to do the best for other people so that they don’t reject you but yet they do. This means that you need to look at what you are doing to make others reject you. It has become so bad that I feel you are now rejecting yourself in contemplating suicide! You may be angry about something and because you think that it cannot be expressed, you are turning it inwards. The identity crisis is a typical issue of someone who is dependent on others for acknowledgement and tends to identify with other personalities. You probably suffer from low self-esteem. But far worse than that is my fear that you have this rejection issue, which is compounded with abandonment issues and separation anxiety. The fear of acceptance may then trigger a performance-oriented individual who will depend entirely on other people’s opinion and assessment of herself. This will make you even more vulnerable and susceptible to rejection, and you may hurt very badly and easily at the slightest sign of rejection. There is a way about this, but meet with a counselor first and see what can be worked out to learn to accept yourself first. If you did this you will naturally perform well and will not depend on others, entirely, for their acceptance. If you know of any reason to believe that this rejection is true from your childhood it would help tremendously. Talk to your parents and find out what they remember or you could take them with you to meet with the counselor. If you learn to accept yourself first then the identity may be formed, but the best way to develop an identity is to know your emotions and how to express them. Your feelings are a very good indicator of who you are. A counselor will help you do this well. 

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Dr. Sushil Kumar S VPsychiatrist13yrs exp

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Good ​Morning, I am glad you are sharing your thoughts online. I believe you have a combination of depression and social anxiety. Both of these can be effectively treated with medications and therapy or counseling or a combination of both those modalities of treatment. It is quite disabling to be in your situation and I completely understand what you are going through. You need to take control of your life, make a decision to book an appointment with a psychiatrist, pay for a session online with the undersigned and head for the change as soon as possible. Look forward to hearing from you. If you need help with booking an appointment online with me on this website either text, audio or video appointment for confidential and private consultation you may do so by contacting the help desk of Lybrate.  

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Confusion is biggest problem. Get your mind clear with it. Everybody goes through this problem at your age. Focus on one thing, don't allow confusions. Consult psychiatrist online, he will definitely clear your confusions. 

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