Hi Sir, I am suffering from mental disorder believe its going out of control, I never slept from months, eg one day morning I am going for running I am good and happy, but suddenly in between. Running. I am turn very sad. My thought tun me sad l Even. May you sir imagine how bad, I fall down on ground. Hard to breathe and my thought like its blown my mind, I never sleep. I go for running and gym. Regularly my body is strong but my mind is not .every time I thinking about why I am not success, I am tell from deep down in my heart. I hate my self. I have guilt for my self, I do not like my self and I do not wanna live. Its not normal a boy of my age has no desire to live, I am suffering really bad and the biggest disappointment in my life my parents they never love they do not care what, how I feel I am 22 they never came to me and ask son what going on ?Are good or not they do not care, they care only reputation. Even my mom have no time for me, please help me to out of this ,tell me where I need to go. What should I do, please help me to figure it out?