HI, I am 23 year old female. I have suffered from lots of trauma in childhood and also sexually which has made me prefer isolation and I have anger management issues. I think It's effected me mentally whatever I saw. I tend to be okay not talking to anyone for days. I over eat or don't eat at all. I am into cutting. I have outbursts and also very violent thoughts. I cry sometimes but only if am alone. I tend to avoid people and have a very high amount of hate towards people. I don't react to violence like others do. I am lacking empathy most of the basic emotions and feel less fear. Not being scared in reckless situations makes me wonder how dangerous I am. I am either indifferent or excited by violence. But I do not show it cause I don't wanna scare anyone. Self harm or pain inflicted makes me peaceful or I feel like I am in frenzy and want to hurt someone or get hurt. Human interaction disgusts me. I hate being touched by anyone. It makes me feel like something disgusting.